How boring life would be without the tempest of our thoughts...
Dec 21, 2007
Endings
No matter how prepared you think you are - mentally, emotionally, psychologically - for something to end, when it does, it's still a twist of a jagged knife which leaves a gaping wound slowly pulsating as the pain begins to recede.
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hello Janna This isn't the same but sorta,,,, i thought i had prepared myself for my son's passing,, he was born with medical problems, We (my ex wife and i) were told he would not live a long life probably,,But with hope and denial We brought him home with Joy,after months in the hospital,,We would love him for how ever long God would allow us,, as the years passed, Happiness, Joy, sadness , and set backs filled our lives,i tried to prepare myself knowing the day would come,,,, Then came that fateful day, i had just got home from work, my ex wife's mom called,the call was short, "you need to come to the hospital, Lil Don is gone" As the years have passed now, it will be 9 years Feburay 3,, i still cry, i still miss him,, the hurt doesn't go away,,, i comfort myself by visting his grave,keeping pictures of him around my home,,, telling myself he is freed from a body that didn't work,, i feel Happiness knowing God put him in my life to learn, to feel all of the emotions, from good to bad,, i hope you find comfort in your heart to get past this place you are in,, it is a cruel way of living and learning,, but it does make us stronger,,, Huggz Countess' pooch (girlyman)
Thank you, girlyman! I really appreciate your sharing what is clearly a painful memory for you. I can't imagine losing a child, I can't imagine there being anything as difficult as that in one's life. I am glad you have found ways of both comforting yourself and of keeping his memory alive in your heart. Thank you again for sharing.
2 comments:
hello Janna
This isn't the same but sorta,,,, i thought i had prepared myself for my son's passing,, he was born with medical problems, We (my ex wife and i) were told he would not live a long life probably,,But with hope and denial We brought him home with Joy,after months in the hospital,,We would love him for how ever long God would allow us,, as the years passed, Happiness, Joy, sadness , and set backs filled our lives,i tried to prepare myself knowing the day would come,,,,
Then came that fateful day, i had just got home from work, my ex wife's mom called,the call was short, "you need to come to the hospital, Lil Don is gone"
As the years have passed now, it will be 9 years Feburay 3,, i still cry, i still miss him,, the hurt doesn't go away,,, i comfort myself by visting his grave,keeping pictures of him around my home,,, telling myself he is freed from a body that didn't work,, i feel Happiness knowing God put him in my life to learn, to feel all of the emotions, from good to bad,,
i hope you find comfort in your heart to get past this place you are in,, it is a cruel way of living and learning,, but it does make us stronger,,,
Huggz
Countess' pooch
(girlyman)
Thank you, girlyman! I really appreciate your sharing what is clearly a painful memory for you. I can't imagine losing a child, I can't imagine there being anything as difficult as that in one's life. I am glad you have found ways of both comforting yourself and of keeping his memory alive in your heart. Thank you again for sharing.
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